Hello my lovelies,
A lot of you have been asking about my housing situation. For those new to my blog, I am waiting for my local authority to find me my own accessible property.
Well, unfortunately due to the bloody Coronavirus everything has stopped housing wise (like everything else)
To my internet pals who’ve been asking how I’ve been coping over the Christmas period, it’s been a period of highs and lows. My body dysmorphia reared it’s ugly head when my bed broke (which was probably coincidence but my mind immediately jumped to the conclusion that it was because of my newfound curves – Mirtazapine is a wonderdrug when it comes to depression, well in my case anyway but it’s a bitch for increasing your appetite and causing you to gain weight when you can’t move around and be active.) I just felt utterly disgusted with myself and immediately went too strict with myself by allowing no snacks or treats, until my mum intervened and told me that it was all about finding a healthy balance.
I was feeling like a curvy Marylin Monroe on Christmas Day and was throughly spoilt by my family however every time I took a selfie I just saw my chipmunk cheeks, dry skin and flabby neck. I cheered myself up by FaceTiming all my family and spending my Amazon gift cards that were supposed to be for organisation and stationery ended up being spent on my one true love, books.
My pain hasn’t been too bad but I’m still plagued by back/pelvic pain and numb legs (Relax relax, I know all the signs for cauda equina, been there done that so to speak) but, the good news is that muscular Skeletal Clinic has rescheduled my appointment for the 4th of January and I am going to make sure they do every possible x-ray and MRI to rule out a second prolapsed disc because in my heart of hearts I think that may be the cause to a lot of my problems and I haven’t seen a spinal specialist or a scoliogram in over two years.
Other than that not much has been going on. Here’s a lowdown of what I’ve enjoyed over the festivities
BEST TV/FILM: Tiny Pretty things, Call the Midwife, The story of SM TV Live
MUSIC: Plastic Hearts by Miley Cyrus, Shania Twain, John Travolta and Alyssa Cara & PROM (The Soundtrack)
READING: Rebel Rose (The Queens Council book no 1), Of Marriageable Age by Sharon Maas, Family Album by Danielle Steele and Bollywood Wives by Alex Khan.